PI REJECTED. i am so angry!!!!!!!!!! and sad.

and ppl dont do surveys properly. thats all i have to say -.-

today was a good day.
squash was HARD at first, i could hit the ball right.but then it got more comfortable to hit. maybe i wasnt that good,but it felt good to hit the ball right for once.
Ny trip! heard we have to do a presentation.ahhhh (i suck @ presentations). but at least its a group effort! wooooo
and i miss all my friends!
plus melon juice rocks!!!!

PI! -omg thank goodness for the good idea.now i can find a good path to focus on.yay! thank my lucky stars!
and all my friends 4 the encouragement!
(i think im such a retarded animal lover. i dont even dare to be in a cage with a dog.the spca woman must think i shouldnt even be in paws.oh no..)

doomed.but still happy (:

a girl can dream...
so like me. always dreaming here and dreaming there
never stepping into reality.
i feel like a dumb person sometimes.
i think i dream too much. like face it,,, some things won't come true right.. (especially with eye candies.HUHhhh!!!!)

okay update on my life.(nothing much though.unless u want me to state the pointless stuff i've practically been learning in school. )

-applied and got in to the 'new york' trip thing. happy and excited of course.but plane issues here and there. not so excited
-i feel so stupid. -.- everyone around me is getting and understanding everything. like physics-dynamics and maths-sequence series and graphic techniques. what about me??? im like the dumbstruck one. whats this? whats that? so much for thinking i'll be OK for maths and physics.bullcrap.
-squash. okay im in squash.but... the number last for sure. i cant hit the ball without missing. its so...awkward. especially when everyone's looking and i get soooo intimidated. then i miss.but its not just that,maybe im just not SKILLED enough.sucks.
-PAWS.okay, tmr's the FIRST outing.hopefully the cats OR dogs dont scratch/bite me. phobia from getting scratched,but i dont think i will get scratched again rightt.... o.o(p.s- i love animals okay! my poor gerbils though.<<<)
-EZ-link card. whats up with me NOT BRINGING MY EZ LINK CARD TO SCHOOL WITHOUT CHECKING MY WALLET??????????? instead of the nice and easy 70 cents i pay everyday, i pay 2.80.2 DOLLARS AND 80 CENTS.wtf. -.- need to remember to bring my card AND CHECK MY POCKET/WALLET AT ALL times!
-PI. okay, i really feel like banging my head on the wall with hopes that miraculously some great and fantastic idea (that will make a teacher go WOW) will fall in. but. not . happening.



maybe this is my hell.

what a fake u are..telling me something that u dont do then doing it the next
weird.
gross actually.

but who am i to say.

whatever to the people here
-.-

maybe i should just heck it all and leave myself to myself.
so irritating and gross.
it seems like u're trying to prove something to me -.-
well apparently im the only one who sees the disgusting-ness in u.