I'm free now so i shall just blog about LIFE.
don't u ever wonder whether if u will feel PAIN when u die?
like.......do u feel the pain that u feel when u are dead???
or....
what decides that a person's time is up
is it...supposed to be? or decided upon by "someone"
besides, what happens AFTER death.
what does the future bring?
what makes a person?
why do we have life??
why do we think?
why do we feel?
why am i even real...in fact, what is real????
my hands are real.my face? is that real?
or just a facade.
i dont get life.at.all
right now, all i know that life is something worth living for. and i shouldnt ask so many questions.

the not-so-eventful year is tragic.
i'd just have 1 more week to finish up pw! and get it over and done with
i'm just so sick of it!!!!!! (and freaking bobblehead)
gross.
anyways i realised that i've nt spoken much 2 my secondary sch friends!
we SHOULD MEETUP asap.
grrr. jc has taken my life away
act i didnt have a life.
but i'm going to make sure that after jc, i will have a proper one

HATE school+my life.
seriously, and for the countless many times that i've mentioned this
my life=school

and what more!
i'm at a huge risk of retaining
RETAINING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg. i do. not. want. to. RETAIN.
of all things! cut off my fingers! burn my hair. just don't retain me...( okay don't cut off my fingers)
i'm worried for that

but to make myself and others at risk feel better, i'll just think of it as a second chance
and perhaps if i Do retain, at the very least, i COULD get an A for A levels.!
but firstly, i just want to make sure i ace PW and pass CHINESE.
must must must!

Bye!

I am going to DIE.
my promos results were SHITTY.
i only managed to pass 2. get sub passes for 2. and failed 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
whats wrong w me.
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
trying to get over is not helping!

Adults are just KIDS WITH MONEY!!!!!
argh. i don't know why i put that there.
im just pretty angry today
well reasons WHY. are.
i have a sucky voice.
i couldnt find anything to eat at home today and when there is nothing to eat on an angry day...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!thats the ABSOLUTE WORST THING THAT CAN HAPPEN.
also, i hate uncertainty.
and i looked at myself in the mirror today and saw crap
(so much for having the confidence)

then again, on the brighter note. im making jelly today.
to cool myself off and i think i should really cut my hair soon since its bugging me at the neck.i HATE MYHAIR. maybe i should just cut it BALD BALD BALD BALD BALD!!!!!!


ughhhhhhhhhhhh.
(typed in absolute annoyance and anger)

everytime i say i am going to study.
I DONT. and i have gp exam tmr and i am blogging.
IM BLOGGING..............
its the mentality that i HAVE to study on the day before the exam.
but i cant. focus.
i bet that @ night i'll be rushing through everything like crazy.
wasted afternoon. half an afternoon.
I CANT STUDY.WHAT CAN I DO..

I CONQUERED SOMETHING BUT I FORGOT.

not that im a hater or anything,
but i seem to hate so many people and things.
am i nuts?